Serious Clowns

There can be a simple wonderful devastation in sitting around and watching old people.

Some look just like little kids whose grown up costume has broken.
They seem a bit worried at first that someone may notice.
Defensive and perhaps a bit scared
Others of course… are no longer that concerned.
And its fucking gourgeous!
openly childlike… their costume is mostly eroded.
Only the colors of dissolved streamers and tangles of tinsel clinging here and there.
Crazy wigs with bits of confetti
They almost look like full blown clowns!
Wild makeup and funny hats!
wonder and amazement
at the coming and going
walking - almost a kinda labored waltzing
to some strange music
could almost look like fun.

Dragging around a decaying body
Those you have loved and known
dead or dying of various ailments
Being completely useless
perhaps being a burden

Life is funny
You shit your pants in the beginning
You shit your pants in the end
And in between?

All of this shit can become very very serious.

My prayer for you dear friend is that you don't get to concerned on sorting out the shit from fertilizer...
cuz that would be true madness